Recap: Malini’s matches her every expectation of husband and his character with Raghav.
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Malini forgot the count of number of times she opened her door and stared at Sarath’s shoe rack to see if he has left to office but testing her patience he was yet to go and Malini was growing anxious to meet Krithi to continue her discussion she left half way when Raghav returned from office.
Raghav made sure Malini had her breakfast with him and left office early than usual and the moment he left Malini started to check on Krithi’s door. Her anxiety made her forget that Sarath was not left to office but she was early and eager to meet Krithi.
Her fingers would have started to bleed any moment as she bite her nails but god blessed her fingers and Krithi opened the door and Sarath left to office. Malini immediately ran to her after closing her door.
Malini: Anni evlo neram ungalukku wait panren theriyuma. ( sister in law do you know I have been waiting for you ?)
Krithika: Theriyum nee ivlo impatient ah varuva nu. ( I know why you are so impatient )
Malini: appo anna yen late poraru seekiram poga solli irukalam la. ( Then why brother has left late to office ? you should have sent him early)
Krithika: Adiye aaru correct time than poraru unakku avasaram. Seri ippo sollu enna achu ( girl, he left on right time and you are impatient. Tell me what happened )
Malini: Anni neenga sonna ellam questions yosichen. ( I thought of all the questions you asked me yesterday)
Krithika: what is the answer ?
Malini: Raghav…. Raghav is the only answer She replied shyly.
Krithi felt really happy for her realization.
Krithika: Seri answer kedachudhu apram enna? ( So you got the answer and what next ?)
Malini: Ayyo anni adhu illa idhu vera. ( sister in law, this is different now)
Krithika: Idhu enna? ( What is that?)
Malini: Anni even if my answers are Raghav still will I able to be his wife for a life time. He will have expectations for his wife. Raghav ku enna accept panna mudiyuma infact neenga sonna mathiri external factors ellame enakku Raghav dhan. loving, caring, protecting appadi nu patha Raghav mattum than. But marriage is not simply these things la there will be more expectations.
( Sister in law even if my answers are Raghav still will I able to be his wife for a life time. He will have expectations for his wife. Will Raghav be able to accept me ? All the external factors love, care, protecting all are pointing only Raghav. But marriage is not simply these things la there will be more expectations.)
Raghav enna yosikuran therila, whether I can be a good wife therila or may be indha feel ellame infatuation ah kooda therila. Just because Raghav enna nalla pathukura nala I cannot take him for granted. He too has a life with dreams andha dreams la naa suit avena therila. Oru wife ah will I be able to take this relationship to the next level therila.
( I don’t know what is on Raghav’s mind, I don’t if I can be a good wife to him or if this is infatuation. Just because Raghav takes care of me I cannot take him for granted. He too has dreams and i m not sure if I m the person of his dreams. Will I be able to take the next step in our relationship ?)
Krithika: ok Malini let us think like you say. If you don’t want to continue this marriage just because you feel this is infatuation or just because he cares for you then let us consider as assumption alone ok ….
You both will have to move on in your life and cannot continue like this. So you will have to marry some one and same goes to Raghav anna. Will you be ok with someone else in your life and will you be ok to see Raghav anna with some other girl.
She will hold all the rights of a wife with him and you will be just a friend and watch them being lovey dovey too. Above all, the person who will come into your life will seek the same intimate moments and love from you and Raghav anna will be a third person in you life.
You both may be still friends but the equation may not be the same I mean to say. Your partners evlo understanding ah irundhalum definitely they will not accept someone being more important than them. so obviously things will change between you. Of all these years you haven’t stayed a day without seeing each other but if you decide to go on different direction then that won’t possible in first place. Hanging out together will not be possible may be family outing irukalam.
Do you understand what I am saying ?
Malini: hmm puriyudhu anni. (yes, I can understand)
Krithika: Its simple Malini. If you are ready to marry someone else and will be able to see Raghav with someone else then go on your ways else take every step to give a chance to this marriage if you feel the love for him. I believe Anna too loves you and I can see in his eyes. May be he is waiting or giving time for you to get comfortable.
Believe me Malu, you both are made for each other and you cannot live without each other. Destiny has brought you together and you both love each other madly. I can say it strongly. Just friend tag ah thandi look at him you will see the love in his eyes.
Malini: After marriage I could see and feel some diffrence anni. Something is stopping adhu dhan confusion.
Krithika: Don’t hurry Malu. Go with flow. You know something is brewing up between you both so just go with your heart. Ellam correct ah nadakkum.( Everything will happen in a good way)
Malini: Thanks anni. ( thank you sister in law)
Krithika: Adhukkaga romba varusham la edukadha. ( Don’t take years to it)
Malini gave a hug to her and spent some time with her and left home.
That evening Malini went for a walk in the park and later sat in a bench waiting for Krithi. Her gazed followed a cute family of a young couple with their two or three year aged kid. They were happily playing with him and raining kisses on his cheeks.
Suddenly her mind imagined such a scene in her life. Raghav and her with a cute bundle of joy. Raghav holding him on his shoulder and twirling him. They walking hand in hand as Raghav carried their cutie and she peppering kisses to them. She closed her face with hands out of shy. Same time Krithi’s words rang in her mind.
Malini Mv: Can I see Raghav having a family with someone else?
The question alone was enough to drop her mood and her face turned pale. Before she could think further Krithi joined her and they didn’t talk further about it and just spent time with other ladies playing and returned home later.
Malini was waiting for Raghav to return from office. She learnt making simple chutney from Krithi and made their dinner and waited for him as they always wanted to have their breakfast and dinner together.
She moved to their room and made their bed and took the photo from the night stand which was taken in mysore and they were happily smiling in each other embrace. She touched Raghav’s face that was enough for to shade her cheeks with pink.
Malini: Mr. husband eppo varuvinga? How long should I wait? Yenpa unakku enmela love irukka,irundha nee sollalam la. Nee enna think panra theriyama ennalayum oru mudivukku vara mudiyala. How long should we play with this hide and seek. Naa sollanum wait panriya enna? Naa eppadi solluven. I don’t want you to force yourself adhu dhan bayama irukku. Love should be mutual la.
( Mr. husband when you will come back ? How long should I wait ? Do you feel love for me, if yes why don’t you confess it ? I cannot make a decision without knowing what is on your mind. How long should we play this hide and seek ? Are you waiting for me to confess ? How will I do it ? I m scared of forcing you. Love should be mutual right ?)
I m going mad Raghav, sometimes I feel like telling you the way I feel for you these days but at the same time I don’t want to force you in this marriage so please neeye sollen pa. I will be very happy and I will not have any insecurities like you were forced.
She gave a peck on his cheeks and smiled at her actions. Turning on the music she started to sway to the rythm of the music holding the photo imagining him to dance with her.
Malini : ellame mind voice laye panren. Real ah nadakuma, nadandha eppo nadakkum. But onnu sollava Raghav indha pattum padama solra mathiri love start agura feel kooda nalla irukku. ( I m doing everything in my mind only. Will things happen in real ? If yes when will it happen ? But shall I say something Raghav ? This light and gentle feel of being loved is also good)
Waiting over hours she slept in the couch. The continuous door bell swept away her sleep and she ran to open the door. Raghav was standing. She gave him a warm smile but to the shock of her life he has come with a girl who was slim, perfect to his height and looked extremely beautiful in a well dressed semi modern dress.
Malini looked at her puzzled but Raghav’s voice brought her back to reality.
Raghav: Malini ulla polama? ( Malini, shall we get inside?)
Malini didn’t spoke a work and moved aside and let them inside and closed the door.
Malini: Raghav why were you late and who is this ?
Raghav: solren ma. first poi kudikka yethachum eduthutu variya ( I will tell you but will you get something to drink first ?)
Malini: Dinner sapdalama ? (shall we have dinner ?)
Raghav: Illa naanga saptutom. just coffee mattum kondu vaayen. ( No Malini we had dinner just get us coffee )
Malini moved to kitchen to make coffee when she came back to living she saw them sitting in the couch close to each other. she gave the coffee and stood for few seconds for Raghav to move away from her but he didn’t seem to move away. Malini sat opposite to them and her gaze was fixed on the girl.
R: Malini, you remember I used to say about a junior girl from my college. Adhu ivanga than. She loved me all these years and I just came to know. Avanga veetla marriage ku force panranga solli enna thedi vandhuta. How can I leave her after all I too liked her a lot, infact love sollalam but I never said about my feelings those days. But today morning she came to meet me at my office and we went out and spoke a lot about us. Seems like we are made for each other. she also understood our marriage is just for our parent’s sake so I think its time to speak to our family and move on in life. She cannot wait for long so we need to get married soon.
He wrapped his arms around her shoulder and she leaned on his shoulder. Malini’s world crumbled infront of her and tears rolled unstoppable and she had no words.
The pain of seeeing him with other girl and losing him hit hard. Her heart screamed in pain and yearned for his love. How could she live without him.
Is love so painful but I love you Raghav I love you so much please say its all not true I love you da please she thought as tears rolled on her cheeks
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